birthday wish

and as she blew out the candles on her 17th birthday cake only one wish came to mind, i wish i could die. so she did.

lila

although she had no noticeable accent the south had been kind to her voice, it had smoothed it and slowed it so that all her words flowed together in a type of harmony. it was calming to listen to and had a way of making others comfortable enough for them to talk freely even after knowing her for a short time. all together she had a comforting effect on people, she had a way of make others feel at home. she never talked much but she listened and if you paid attention she would tell you much more with her expressions than her words. she was impossible to forget but hard to remember, she left a deep impression your mind but it was as if you instantly stored her in your long term memory instead of the short. she was a women for indescribable beauty, she made you want to compare her to the moon and stars. of course no one id do that for fear of embarrassing her and sounding hugely cheesy.

stories

so iv decided to make this secret blog a blog to hold the stories and character that get stuck in my head. i am truly a writer in nature and i get character stuck in my head and I'm always trying to perfect them and i cant stop thinking about these people but I'm not very good at writing them down. so now I'm going to start writing them cuz truly i love very single one of them. if your a writer you know how addicted you get to your characters they start to feel like real people after a while. so i think i should at least do them the justice of getting them out of my brain and into the word. alright so this is probably the last entire that's going to make any sense lol

secert

hummm this is weird i didn't even mean to make this blog and no one knows i have it. i dont think im going to tell any body :). i think ill just have a secert blog. :) just for me and my venting on life lol i know it sounds alittle odd to say anything on the internet is secert but i dont really care about strangers reading it. i dont know them and will never met that so it doesnt matter. i really just care about people i know reading it and being able to get into my head. it makes me nervous how far people can crawl into my brain on the other blog. it feels like an invasion most of the time. which is weird because im letting them come into my thoughts. but its like planning a party that you are really excited about and you invite a bunch of people over and stuff but my the time they get there you arnt really excited any more and cant wait for them to leave. i dont know its just weird. well this blog will just be mine, a little secert all to myself.